I had my 14th treatment this morning. I had to have one today because the St.Patrick’s Day events go right by St. Luke’s on Tuesday, so they can’t treat any outpatients that day.
Since it’s Sunday, I think I’ll share some of my spiritual side and things that are important to me. Hopefully you might see where I gain my strength.

I consider myself a fairly spiritual person, though that’s pretty hard to judge from my own point of view. I don’t know if that surprises anyone or not. I’m just an average person with a very personal, private relationship with God. I try to live my life and conduct myself in a manner that reflects that relationship without infringing on anyone else’s beliefs.
I’ve felt Gods hand in my life since I was a child. He’s guided me throughout my life, helped me through all my many mistakes, and never abandoned me. I know He’s always there.
God has blessed me beyond my wildest imaginations. He allows Tida and I to enjoy many worldly comforts, to the extent that many would think them extravagant. We’re thankful for these comforts and enjoy them daily, but they are simply possessions. As I said, they are enjoyed, but not treasured.

My treasures are my family.

My beautiful wife Tida has changed me and my life. She has a spirit unlike anyone I’ve ever known. She cares deeply about all people, but especially her family. She constantly recognizes the wonder and beauty of God’s creation each and every day. She’s made me a better person and I thank God for her every day. Many people thought we didn’t stand a chance together because we seemed so different – which we are! But God has helped us work together over the years so that we can use our differences to build a relationship where our differences complement each other. Through this entire ordeal, I’ve seen the love, concern, fear and hurt in Tida’s eyes, and I’d do anything to be able to take all those fears and hurt away. I absolutely love my life with Tida and could never ask for any more than we currently have. I look forward to our future together, growing old (in my case, older) together, and living a life of leisure and travel. Tida, thank you for sharing your life with me. I love you and treasure you more than you’ll ever know.

My family, parents and 3 sisters are my rock and foundation. As a child, they taught me love for God, and helped shape my morals and values. Many probably wouldn’t consider us a close family, only because we don’t gather often and I can go weeks or months sometimes between talks with my sisters. Some of that probably has to do with me being the only boy and being treated differently growing up. I’m sure there was a little animosity or hard feelings towards me due to that, and may still be, but they’ve never shown any of that towards me which just goes to demonstrate their own character and standards. Closeness in a family can be measured in different ways. In our case, whenever there’s been adversity, we come together and are there for each other. We know there is always love, support and strength waiting for us when needed. Thank you for your quiet, confident love and support in this and all things.

What can I say about Tida’s family? Like Tida and I, our families are quite opposite. My family is quiet and reserved. Do I need to say what Tida’s family is like? At first I think the differences were a little overwhelming for both of us. I was in shock because of all the noise and energy, and they couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me, I was so quiet. They have completely accepted me into their family, and like Tida herself, have changed me and made me better. They have allowed me to grow close to their children. Those that know me know what a blessing those children are in my life. They too make me be a better person; they put a smile on my face and joy in my heart every time I see them. I strive to be positive role model for them every moment I’m around them. I want each of them to grow to be happy, healthy children and adults, and will do everything I can to support them to that end. Thank you for accepting me into your family.

God and family sustain me and make me strong.

Throughout this journey, I’ve been blessed. From the moment of the diagnosis I’ve felt a calmness and peace that can’t be described. I know God is in control, won’t give me more than I can handle, and will provide for my every need.

Our attitude, and searching for and acknowledging God’s blessings can change our lives, and impact the lives around us. We have witnessed changes in others lives, and are constantly amazed at Gods love and mercy and how he works in our lives.

Tomorrow’s going to be a grind, so today I’ll rest and as always, thank God for all His blessings.